Gift-giving

I was in town early this morning.  The shops were just opening, and I had met a friend for a brief but momentous few minutes.  She was on the island to deliver something I need but can't find on the island; she was here to find something she can't find where she lives now.  The details of the gift-giving I'll reserve and share instead the process of gift-giving that adds to life in the process of being 'freed-up.'  The island is at its autumn premium today cool and clear skies and a moon still full bright in the window at 6 AM.  Harvests of beautiful food ... yellow pears with cheeks of pinkish rouge, green apples that melt into a froth when topped over a bed of chopped red cabbage, green beans still snappy and delicious when steamed and the promise of acorn squash baked with butter and a sprinkle of parmesan cheese.  Earth's gifts to the gardener and farmer who has invested time, handwork and the generous conversations that only a cultivator with heart knows how to give.

We have a home where planting, poultry-raising, laughter and the slow yet steady process of healing happens.  The small gardens here in the woods have gifted me with the affirmation:  you can do this!  In the days and nights that pass, the moon, Hina, teaches me that there are different ways to count time and through those lessons my thinking and my beliefs change.  A birthday approaches, and my personal inventory and harvest of one more Earth year lived account for the good and better feelings lighting up my life.  Trials called upon my internal resources and drew from me the strength needed to care well for myself and those I love.  Those are gifts that sometimes don't arrive unless there are no other options.  From awful, something better comes and it amazes.  Celebrate the amazing, large and small!

I prepare to give myself a gift that will require a six month to one year commitment.  It is a gift of believing I can re-train my brain, and it is a gift that I believe will lead to feeling better and better.  For these months, my blogs may be inactive.  I'm not sure what I will want to write during the next months, we'll see.  The healing journey is alive and blessed with the belief that better is good, better is possible.  I've bought my birthday present a little early but it feels like it's coming right on time.

Happy harvest-time and blessings for a time of gifts that make a difference in all the best possible ways.